pEriPhEraL_tHOugHtS

i) I talk to myself (no, not just mumbling subconsciously.. I seriously converse with myself. Heck, sometimes we even argue with each other! o.O)

ii) I'm a manga/anime addict. ESPECIALLY if it's yaoi ^__^.

iii) I hate anything that has peanuts in it particularly peanut butter!

iv) I love milk! I don't care if it's fresh, flavored, skim, semi-skim as long as it's milk of some sort - I'll love it XD. I'm also in *heart* with cheese..Mmmm.. Pizza with extra cheese *drools*

v) I'm a very fussy eater. Everything has to be the right colors,smells,taste and cooked just right (to me).

vi) I'm very sensitive to smells.

vii) Despite being a naturally messy person, whenever I'm stressed or excited - I'll do a top to bottom room cleaning.

viii) I probably have the most imaginative, dramatic and curious mind on earth.

ix) I have a mild OCD.

x) My parents house is haunted (no, seriously!)

xi)I'm very accident-prone. My specialty is falling down the stairs T-T..

xii) According to my IQ test, I'm a genius. (lol..)

xiii)I love shiny stuffs- may it be silver, crystals (thus the name: Criztalinz), white gold, x-mas balls, shiny ribbons,prism, diamonds, bright lights ^__^.. I don't like normal, yellow gold though.

xiv)I've never been kiss <-- How sad was that?? T-T..

xv)Sometimes I got so tired of life, I thought of suicide but it was always "..just be stronger for a little while more" (see, that voice in me IS good for something ^^)..plus, I'm not that fond of pain ><.

xvi) My cat is my life! *points below* That's her. My baby girl ^x^.

This ballad was printed on a broadside by J. Deacon sometime between 1683 and 1700. It was printed as The Great Messenger of Mortality, or a Dialogue betwixt Death and a Lady. A broadside of the ballad appears in the Roxburghe Collection.
I wish I can upload the midi file online.. However, stupid Imeem won't accept it. Maybe coz it's midi and not mp3?? o.O..
First got to know 'bout this poem after I watched Criminal Minds (ABSOLUTELY brilliant series!! *adored Hotner/Reid @ Morgan/Reid pairing XD). One of the unsub (unknown subject a.k.a the criminal) wrote down a verse of the ballad at each crime scene.. but he only wrote the Death side of the dialogue.
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DEATH
'Fair Lady, throw those costly robes aside,
No longer may you glory in your pride;
Take leave of all your carnal vain delight,
I'm come to summon you away this night.'

LADY
'What bold attempt is this? Pray let me know
From whence you come, and whither I must go.
Shall I, who am a lady, stoop or bow
To such a pale-faced visage? Who art thou?'

D. 'Do you not know me? I will tell you then:
I am he that conquers all the sons of men,
No pitch of honour from my dart is free,
My name is Death! Have you not heard of me?'

L. 'Yes; I have heard of thee, time after time;
But, being in the glory of my prime,
I did not think you would have come so soon;
Why must my morning sun go down at noon?'

D. 'Talk not of noon! you may as well be mute;
There is no time at all for vain dispute,
Your riches, gold, and garments,jewels bright,
Your house, and land, must on new owners light.'

L. 'My heart is cold; it trembles at such news!
Here's bags of gold, if you will me excuse
And seize on those; and finish thou their strife,
Who wretched are, and weary of their life.

Are there not many bound in prison strong
In bitter grief? and souls that languish long,
Who could but find the grave a place of rest
From all their grief; by which they are opprest.

Besides there's many with a hoary head
And palsied joints; from whom all joy is fled
Release thou them whose sorrows are so great,
And spare my life until a later date!'

D. 'Though thy vain heart to riches is inclined
Yet thou must die and leave them all behind.
I come to none before their warrant's sealed,
And, when it is, they must submit, and yield.

Though some by age be full of grief and pain,
Till their appointed time they must remain;
I take no bribe, believe me,this is true.
Prepare yourself to go; I'm come for you.'

L. 'But if, oh! if you could for me obtain
A freedom, and a longer life to reign,
Fain would I stay, if thou my life wouldst spare.
I have a daughter, beautiful and fair,
I wish to see her wed, whom I adore;
Grant me but this, and I will ask no more?'

D. 'This is a slender frivolous excuse!
I have you fast! I will not let you loose!
Leave her to Providence, for you must go
Along with me, whether you will or no!

If Death commands the King to leave his crown
He at my feet must lay his sceptre down;
Then, if to Kings I do not favour give
But cut them off, can you expect to live
Beyond the limits of your time and space?
No! I must send you to another place.'

L. 'Ye learned doctors, now exert your skill,
And let not Death on me obtain his will!
Prepare your cordials, let me comfort find,
My gold shall fly like chaff before the wind!'

D. 'Forbear to call! that skill will never do;
They are but mortals here as well as you.
I give the fatal wound, my dart is sure,
And far beyond the doctors' skill to cure.

Flow freely you can let your riches fly
To purchase life, rather than yield and die!
But,while you flourished here with all your store,
You would not give one penny to the poor.

Though in God's name they sue to you did make
You would not spare one penny for His sake.
My Lord beheld wherein you did amiss,
And calls you hence, to give account of this!'

L. 'Oh! heavy news! must I no longer stay?
How shall I stand at the great Judgment Day?'
Down from her eyes the crystal tears did flow,
She says, 'None knows what I now undergo!

Upon my bed of sorrow here I lie!
My selfish life makes me afraid to die!
My sins are great, and manifold,and foul;
Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on my soul!

Alas! I do deserve a righteous frown!
Yet pardon, Lord, and pour a blessing down!'
Then with a dying sigh her heart did break,
And did the pleasures of this world forsake.

Thus may we see the mighty rise and fall,
For cruel Death shews no respect at all
To those of either high or low degree.
The great submit to Death as well as we.

Though they are gay, their life is but a span,
A lump of clay, so vile a creature's Man!
Then happy they whom God hath made his care,
And die in God, and ever happy are!

The grave's the market place where all must meet.
Both rich and poor, as well as small and great;
If life were merchandise, that gold could buy,
The rich would live -- only the poor would die.

"You can't stay mad at somebody who makes you laugh." ~ Jay Leno
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.. Man, some of these just make me ROFLOL! Some are stupid quotes (by hopefully-not-as-equally-stupid-but-I-doubt-it people) and some are just plain funny ^__^.
Have fun!

"Sure there have been injuries and deaths in boxing, but none of them serious."
~ Alan Minter, Boxer. (okaayy.. I DON'T wanna know what kind of injury he DOES consider as serious o.O)

"I think that the film Clueless was very deep. I think it was deep in the way that it was very light. I think lightness has to come from a very deep place if it's true lightness."
~ Alicia Silverstone, Actress. (I'm totally clueless of what she was trying to say T-T).

"You guys line up alphabetically by height."
~ Bill Peterson, Florida State football coach. (Make up your mind coach!)

"The internet is a great way to get on the net."
~ Bob Dole, Republican presidential candidate. (er.. is there any other way??)

"China is a big country, inhabited by many Chinese."
~ Charles De Gaulle, former French President. (..and France is a moderately size country, inhabited by many French.. wow! imagine that.. what a coincidence..! *smirk*)

"If you give a person a fish, they'll fish for a day. But if you train a person to fish, they'll fish for a lifetime."
~ Dan Quayle, former U.S. Vice President. (Really..?? 'coz when someone gave me a fish, I usually just fry them..)

"Most cars on our roads have only one occupant, usually the driver."
~ Carol Malia, BBC Anchorwoman. (I'm actually scared to ask 'what about the rest?')

"It's time for the human race to enter the solar system!"
~ Dan Quayle, former U.S. Vice President on the concept of a manned mission to Mars. (...I feel sorry for the American people.. I honestly do. There are SO MANY intelligent American and somehow this guy was chosen to become VICE president??)

"I love California, I practically grew up in Phoenix."
~ Dan Quayle, former U.S. Vice President. (I gave up! *throws hand*)

"I haven't committed a crime. What I did was fail to comply with the law."
~ David Dinkins, New York City Mayor, answering accusations that he failed to pay his taxes. (I just love politicians.. don't you?)

"I have opinions of my own --strong opinions-- but I don't always agree with them."
~ George Bush, former U.S. President. (Guess someone's having a little MPD problem.. (Multiple Personalities Disorder)

"I do not like this word "bomb." It is not a bomb. It is a device that is exploding."
~ Jacques le Blanc, French ambassador on nuclear weapons. (er.. okaayy)

"He's a guy who gets up at six o'clock in the morning regardless of what time it is."
~ Lou Duva, veteran boxing trainer, on the Spartan training regime of heavyweight Andrew Golota.

"If only faces could talk..."
~ Pat Summerall, Sportscaster, during the Super Bowl. (...no comment..*shakes head*)

"Friendship is like peeing on yourself: everyone can see it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings."

"Last night I lay in bed looking up at the stars in the sky and I thought to myself, where the heck is the ceiling."

"A computer once beat me at chess, but it was no match for me at kick boxing."

"I'm always amazed to hear of air crash victims so badly mutilated that they have to be identified by their dental records. What I can't understand is, if they don't know who you are, how do they know who your dentist is?"
~ Paul Merton

"When his life was ruined, his family killed, his farm destroyed, Job knelt down on the ground and yelled up to the heavens, "Why god? Why me?" and the thundering voice of God answered, "There's just something about you that pisses me off."
~ Stephen King.

"If toast always lands butter-side down, and cats always land on their feet, what happens if you strap toast on the back of a cat and drop it?"
~ Steven Wright.

"A mother is a person who seeing there are only four pieces of pie for five people, promptly announces she never did care for pie."
~ Tenneva Jordan (This one is more of the 'aww..' quote than funny)

"Here's something to think about: How come you never see a headline like 'Psychic Wins Lottery'?"
~ Jay Leno.

King Marsilies is turn'ed white with rage,
His feathered dart he brandishes and shakes.
Guenes beholds: his sword in hand he takes,
Two fingers' width from scabbard bares the blade;
And says to it: "O clear and fair and brave;
Before this King in court we'll so behave,
That the Emperour of France shall never say
In a strange land I'd thrown my life away
Before these chiefs thy temper had essayed."
"Let us prevent this fight:" the pagans say.

Then Sarrazins implored him so, the chiefs,
On the faldstoel Marsillies took his seat.
"Greatly you harm our cause," says the alcaliph:
"When on this Frank your vengeance you would wreak;
Rather you should listen to hear him speak."
"Sire," Guenes says, "to suffer I am meek.
I will not fail, for all the gold God keeps,
Nay, should this land its treasure pile in heaps,
But I will tell, so long as I be free,
What Charlemagne, that Royal Majesty,
Bids me inform his mortal enemy."
Guenes had on a cloke of sable skin,
And over it a veil Alexandrin;
These he throws down, they're held by Blancandrin;
But not his sword, he'll not leave hold of it,
In his right hand he grasps the golden hilt.
The pagans say. "A noble baron, this."

Before the King's face Guenes drawing near
Says to him "Sire, wherefore this rage and fear?
Seeing you are, by Charles, of Franks the chief,
Bidden to hold the Christians' right belief.
One half of Spain he'll render as your fief
The rest Rollanz, his nephew, shall receive,
Proud parcener in him you'll have indeed.
If you will not to Charles this tribute cede,
To you he'll come, and Sarraguce besiege;
Take you by force, and bind you hands and feet,
Bear you outright ev'n unto Aix his seat.
You will not then on palfrey nor on steed,
Jennet nor mule, come cantering in your speed;
Flung you will be on a vile sumpter-beast;
Tried there and judged, your head you will not keep.
Our Emperour has sent you here this brief."
He's given it into the pagan's nief.

Now Marsilies, is turn'ed white with ire,
He breaks the seal and casts the wax aside,
Looks in the brief, sees what the King did write:
"Charles commands, who holds all France by might,
I bear in mind his bitter grief and ire;
'Tis of Basan and 's brother Basilye,
Whose heads I took on th' hill by Haltilye.
If I would save my body now alive,
I must despatch my uncle the alcalyph,
Charles will not love me ever otherwise."
After, there speaks his son to Marsilye,
Says to the King: "In madness spoke this wight.
So wrong he was, to spare him were not right;
Leave him to me, I will that wrong requite."
When Guenes hears, he draws his sword outright,
Against the trunk he stands, beneath that pine.

The King is gone into that orchard then;
With him he takes the best among his men;
And Blancandrins there shews his snowy hair,
And Jursalet, was the King's son and heir,
And the alcaliph, his uncle and his friend.
Says Blancandrins: "Summon the Frank again,
In our service his faith to me he's pledged."
Then says the King: "So let him now be fetched."
He's taken Guenes by his right finger-ends,
And through the orchard straight to the King they wend.
Of treason there make lawless parliament.

"Fair Master Guenes," says then King Marsilie,
"I did you now a little trickery,
Making to strike, I shewed my great fury.
These sable skins take as amends from me,
Five hundred pounds would not their worth redeem.
To-morrow night the gift shall ready be."
Guene answers him: "I'll not refuse it, me.
May God be pleased to shew you His mercy."

Then says Marsile "Guenes, the truth to ken,
Minded I am to love you very well.
Of Charlemagne I wish to hear you tell,
He's very old, his time is nearly spent,
Two hundred years he's lived now, as 'tis said.
Through many lands his armies he has led,
So many blows his buckled shield has shed,
And so rich kings he's brought to beg their bread;
What time from war will he draw back instead?"
And answers Guenes: "Not so was Charles bred.
There is no man that sees and knows him well
But will proclaim the Emperour's hardihead.
Praise him as best I may, when all is said,
Remain untold, honour and goodness yet.
His great valour how can it be counted?
Him with such grace hath God illumined,
Better to die than leave his banneret."

The pagan says: "You make me marvel sore
At Charlemagne, who is so old and hoar;
Two hundred years, they say, he's lived and more.
So many lands he's led his armies o'er,
So many blows from spears and lances borne,
And so rich kings brought down to beg and sorn,
When will time come that he draws back from war?"
"Never," says Guenes, "so long as lives his nephew;
No such vassal goes neath the dome of heaven;
And proof also is Oliver his henchman;
The dozen peers, whom Charl'es holds so precious,
These are his guards, with other thousands twenty.
Charles is secure, he holds no man in terror."

Says Sarrazin: "My wonder yet is grand
At Charlemagne, who hoary is and blanched.
Two hundred years and more, I understand,
He has gone forth and conquered many a land,
Such blows hath borne from many a trenchant lance,
Vanquished and slain of kings so rich a band,
When will time come that he from war draws back?"
"Never," says Guene, "so long as lives Rollanz,
From hence to the East there is no such vassal;
And proof also, Oliver his comrade;
The dozen peers he cherishes at hand,
These are his guard, with twenty thousand Franks.
Charles is secure, he fears no living man."

"Fair Master Guenes," says Marsilies the King,
"Such men are mine, fairer than tongue can sing,
Of knights I can four hundred thousand bring
So I may fight with Franks and with their King."
Answers him Guenes: "Not on this journeying
Save of pagans a great loss suffering.
Leave you the fools, wise counsel following;
To the Emperour such wealth of treasure give
That every Frank at once is marvelling.
For twenty men that you shall now send in
To France the Douce he will repair, that King;
In the rereward will follow after him
Both his nephew, count Rollant, as I think,
And Oliver, that courteous paladin;
Dead are the counts, believe me if you will.
Charles will behold his great pride perishing,
For battle then he'll have no more the skill.

Fair Master Guene," says then King Marsilie,
"Shew the device, how Rollant slain may be."
Answers him Guenes: "That will I soon make clear
The King will cross by the good pass of Size,
A guard he'll set behind him, in the rear;
His nephew there, count Rollant, that rich peer,
And Oliver, in whom he well believes;
Twenty thousand Franks in their company
Five score thousand pagans upon them lead,
Franks unawares in battle you shall meet,
Bruised and bled white the race of Franks shall be;
I do not say, but yours shall also bleed.
Battle again deliver, and with speed.
So, first or last, from Rollant you'll be freed.
You will have wrought a high chivalrous deed,
Nor all your life know war again, but peace.

"Could one achieve that Rollant's life was lost,
Charle's right arm were from his body torn;
Though there remained his marvellous great host,
He'ld not again assemble in such force;
Terra Major would languish in repose."
Marsile has heard, he's kissed him on the throat;
Next he begins to undo his treasure-store.

Said Marsilie -- but now what more said they? --
"No faith in words by oath unbound I lay;
Swear me the death of Rollant on that day."
Then answered Guene: "So be it, as you say."
On the relics, are in his sword Murgles,
Treason he's sworn, forsworn his faith away.

To love means loving the unlovable.
To forgive means pardoning the unpardonable.
Faith means believing the unbelievable.
Hope means hoping when everything seems hopeless.
~ Gilbert K. Chesterton.

My God.. It's been.. what?? 3 months or so since I've posted (not including the mock-post. e.g: quiz test etc..).
A lot have happened since then.. Well, nothing earth shattering or anything like that. Just on-off minor stress, up/down moods, weight gain/lost.. you know, just the normal everyday things in a student's life.
Here's a quick recount of what's new:

-I was in utter depression on the 21st July.. Why?? Because of the final HP book.. I mean, wtf kinda ending was that??!! The worse thing was that my absolute favorite (read: obsessed) character died, MEANINGLESSLY!!.. and to think he had SO much potential of actually making the whole HP be so much more than just another children's book..*shake head*.. Yeah, yeah.. i know that it's totally Rowling's right to do whatever the hell she wants with the characters/story.. She created them after all.. And that's exactly what she did. Brought the whole thing to hell.. Kudos to you too Jo!

- Had my first interview for my research thingie today.. with one of the ASDA's managers. I absolutely *heart* everyone in ASDA!! they're so friendly and helpful!! *hugs everyone of them* ^__^. Tesco however is giving me hell.. They acted like I was from some paparazzi or something and they are like hotshots who just sorry-but-we-can't-even-spare-1/2 an hour-for-anyone-coz-we-have-better-things-to-do.. I mean, HELLO!! I am a student!! I'm doing a research for my dissertation, which probably gonna be read ONLY by my supervisor and then get thrown at the back of the cabinet or something.. It's not like I'm plotting Tesco's demise or try to uncover their evil plot and expose them to the world. Freakin' paranoids! *sigh*.. my dissertation is so f#*cked..

- I have to move to a new place.. Found one and it's absolute gorgeous!! and right at the city centre! I'm so thankful that I didn't have to search for long.. Heck, I just told couple of my friends that I need a new place and voila!.. I *heart* you guys.. *misty eyes* ^^.

- I am SO GLAD I went back to Malaysia for more than a month.. I didn't realize how stressed I was until I was actually in my dad's car. Then all of a sudden, I'm able to breathe easier and more deeply.. And I can practically feel all the tension melted away. I never notice it before but it seems that here I've been tensing myself all the time..like when your body is preparing to flee or waiting for something to happen. And I've never been able to just relax and take a deep breath. I guess it's true that we feel the most safe at our parents house. Realistic or not, it feels like nothing can get to me there. Like I can just let go, relax and not to worry about anything. I can just be myself (slob and all.. though I doubt my mom would agree 'bout that) and not to be on my guard 24/7. I smile and laugh!!.. and be as childish and happy and silly as I used to be with my siblings.. It's like a break from the real world. And I really need that :D.

- I've also learn to cook more dishes.. which in turn, make me feel like a sponge cake with extra baking powder.. I just keep getting rounder and chubbier T-T..

-One of the highlights coming back here, I went to the La Rumba Latina Night the weekend before last and I had a blast!! I went with my kinda-new friend and we stayed at the party from 10-1 and then moved to a club and stayed there until the last song (around 3+).. By the time I arrived home, it was 4 am and my feet hurt like b#*ch. But I was so happy and high (on adrenaline..ONLY). I LOVE dancing!! It was such a fun way getting sweaty and dirty. And who the hell cares that I can't dance to save my life?? I certainly don't give a s#*t. I just went out there and have the time of my life, regardless whether I'm dancing alone or not XD. There are people who offered me champagne and beers and stuffs but I've never drink and won't ever start. That's the beauty of it, I guess.. I'm one of those that didn't need that extra push of alcohol/drugs to just let loose and have fun and be so freakin' energetic that some of my friends are having trouble keepin' up with me. Adrenaline-high is the best! Nature's own way to make sure we have fun without damaging/polluting our bodies ^__^. *hugs Mother Nature*.

... So anyway, that's basically it of my boring life. This weekend I have to fully dedicate myself to at least start on my lit. review to show my lecturer come Monday T-T. Wish me luck as I would BADLY need it to pull this thing through *bangs head on the wall*

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...yep, that's MY pic on top there.. *shakes head*.. Unattractive is THE understatement of the year *smirk*